After finding out that I did not make it to the final round of Lilla Rogers’ Global Talent Search, I was honestly bummed. I never expected to make it to the top 50. But I did. Then I got my hopes up that I might make it to the top 6 as well. At the same time, I was trying to prepare myself for inevitable disappointment. I thought I was ready for the bad news. But there’s not really a good way to not be disappointed about something so BIG that could have been career-changing. I didn’t feel like creating ANYTHING for a lot of days after that. I wasn’t depressed or anything, and really, I got over not being picked in a matter of one day. But I still felt burnt out on everything. There was so much anticipation about which 6 artists would be chosen, and so much hype, and then it was instantly over.
It meant that I had to go back to my piles and piles of signs that had been patiently waiting for me to finish and ship out all over Michigan. Not that I don’t love what I’m doing. It just felt old and stale. It made me wonder if my art was really very good at all… or if people just placed orders simply because it’s made in Michigan and not in China.
So I didn’t create anything at all for quite a few days. I rearranged my living room, put up Fall decorations, boiled some apple peels with cinnamon to make the house smell good. I went to bed early… It was SO. NICE.
Then, the other morning, I was drinking my coffee (which was tasting exceptionally good that day). I decided to get out some new paints I had bought weeks ago. I had a bunch of ripped up book pages in a basket that were waiting for a project, and a few wood boards that I collaged for an earlier assignment. I didn’t have a plan, I just got the stuff out, and went to work.
They turned into some of my favorite pieces ever! You may have seen these on Instagram over the past few days… I’ve been creating like crazy!
p.s. I just put these in my Etsy shop. They will also be on shopwhatitis.com soon!